We have these friends... we used to be SUPER close to them and hung out like every single day for over a year. Then we moved to our house in May 2004, they had adopted in january of 2004 and all of a sudden they had no time for us. I mean no time. We kept inviting them to do things... they always begged off. They always were too tired, too sick, too busy. Eventually we got frusterated and just stopped asking them to do things. We see them on kids birthdays, Christmas... ummm... the very odd time when Jeff pops over to their house and they actually let him past the front door. I know they really are busy, she works nights, he's getting a business running, but COME ON! They honestly could make some time for us.
But... the woman of the couple is Wiccan. I know she would have enjoyed the ritual yesterday. I know her kid would have had a great time. I know Jeff would have loved spending time with his best friend. And yet I didn't invite them. Why? I guess I just got tired of being turned down and put off. I didn't want to be turned down once again. I want to spend time with people who actually WANT to spend time with me. Because they want to, not because they have to. Ahhh... guilt. Gotta love it.
On a happier note... I LOVE my best friends little guy. Just love him. I am his goddess mother (lol!) and he's about 8 months old and the cutest, sweetest little man in the world! He loves to snuggle. We were playing a game where I whisper sweet nothings in his ear and he just lays his head against me... ahhhh... heaven in a baby package. His big sister and Olivia are bestest friends too and that makes it very cool. Maddy really needs a best friend. I guess come kindergarten that will happen. I can't wait until her ballet end of the year recital. They are doing Peter Pan and she is being a pink rainbow fish (?) I don't remember any fish in Peter Pan ... lol! I guess they need something for the littlest ones to do.
I got another email from a former friend the other day. I almost didn't see it as Jeff had set up a filter for me in my email so her stuff goes directly there. She was very aggressive towards me when I was cutting off our friendship and I didn't need that shit. The email she sent was very nice and thoughtful but I just can't GO there again you know? I'm unsure whether to write her back or not...
Well jeff is out at aforementioned best friends... cutting some wood to make a stand for our center console we bought for the van like two months ago ;) I'm on my own... kidlets have been in bed for a couple hours now and that is niiiiiicccceeee...
Monday, May 01, 2006
Beltaine
It was good! I think a fantastic time was held by all. No major meltdowns by any kids and no blood to be seen anywhere ;) Almost all the food was eaten and laughter was the order of the day. I think it was a success :)
The ritual *itself* could have been more... organized I guess. You know like figuring out the directions ahead of time ;) Letting Jeff (the Green king) and I (the flower queen) know where we should be standing etc. But really, considering the fact that there were children running around everywhere it was good :) C and J made flower crowns for all the kidlets and green leaf crowns for most of the guys. My kids are in LOVE with theirs :)
Everyone left by about 8:30 and we just sat by the fire for a bit. Then we all (including Maddy and Liv) cleaned up the back yard. I went in and got the kids ready for bed while jeff brought in the leftover food. They went to bed easily but a good night was not had... Olivia was sleep walking around midnight and ran into a wall. Then Maddy woke up with a nightmare at around 3:45 am. However they ALL SLEPT until 11am!!!!! Jeff got up with the kids and I was in bed till almost noon! I was freaking exhausted. Exhausted to the point that my legs were twitching and I had a hard time falling asleep. It was good though :)
Heather came bearing gifts :) She brought me the most adorable premie side snap fitted dipe that she made for me. It's so cute and soft and tiny! I love it. She also gave me a bar of breastmilk lavendar soap that was made from her baby Jericho's (that died shortly after birth) breast milk. I think it will be lovely for our new little person.
Well Maddy and Daddy are out paying rent. Olivia is eating yoguart, oatmeal muffin and blackberries while watching Max and Ruby. I'm still in my housecoat ;)
The ritual *itself* could have been more... organized I guess. You know like figuring out the directions ahead of time ;) Letting Jeff (the Green king) and I (the flower queen) know where we should be standing etc. But really, considering the fact that there were children running around everywhere it was good :) C and J made flower crowns for all the kidlets and green leaf crowns for most of the guys. My kids are in LOVE with theirs :)
Everyone left by about 8:30 and we just sat by the fire for a bit. Then we all (including Maddy and Liv) cleaned up the back yard. I went in and got the kids ready for bed while jeff brought in the leftover food. They went to bed easily but a good night was not had... Olivia was sleep walking around midnight and ran into a wall. Then Maddy woke up with a nightmare at around 3:45 am. However they ALL SLEPT until 11am!!!!! Jeff got up with the kids and I was in bed till almost noon! I was freaking exhausted. Exhausted to the point that my legs were twitching and I had a hard time falling asleep. It was good though :)
Heather came bearing gifts :) She brought me the most adorable premie side snap fitted dipe that she made for me. It's so cute and soft and tiny! I love it. She also gave me a bar of breastmilk lavendar soap that was made from her baby Jericho's (that died shortly after birth) breast milk. I think it will be lovely for our new little person.
Well Maddy and Daddy are out paying rent. Olivia is eating yoguart, oatmeal muffin and blackberries while watching Max and Ruby. I'm still in my housecoat ;)
Friday, April 28, 2006
Baby corn and other things...
I love baby corn. For lunch I just had a bunch. Yum. Little salt and pepper and I am in heaven!
So I'm mostly better and over this sickness. My throat is not sore anymore. My ears are unplugged. Still a bit of a cough but I can deal with that :)
Sunday Jeff and I are hosting Beltane. There's going to be about 20 people here. I am almost 34 weeks pregnant. Am I insane??? It's a potluck and I am making veggie chili with ground round, foccacia and hummus. We're also providing drinks, munchies etc.
I have another non stress test tomorrow. The baby has been moving around so much I hope they can keep a tracing on him!!!
So I'm mostly better and over this sickness. My throat is not sore anymore. My ears are unplugged. Still a bit of a cough but I can deal with that :)
Sunday Jeff and I are hosting Beltane. There's going to be about 20 people here. I am almost 34 weeks pregnant. Am I insane??? It's a potluck and I am making veggie chili with ground round, foccacia and hummus. We're also providing drinks, munchies etc.
I have another non stress test tomorrow. The baby has been moving around so much I hope they can keep a tracing on him!!!
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Sleep...
Or lack there of...
Once again it's 5 am and I am WIDE AWAKE. I wake every single night between 4 and 4:30 and cannot get back to sleep. So I wander the house, have some water, chew some gum, go pee... eventually get on the computer and see what the rest of the world is doing. Usually not too much ;) Dammit I just got to sleep at like 1:30! So now I'll be awake till at least 6 am and then up at 9 am with the girls. No wonder I'm fucking tired all the time.
So Jeff and I are hosting the Beltaine ritual for our pagan group this sunday. They are a good group of people and I am enjoying getting to know them. It's nice to have some "couple" friends again as we've been without that kind of interaction for a couple of years now.
Baby blue is sleeping peacefully at the moment... okay never mind. As I wrote that he kicked my right rib. Nice. lol! He's an active one for sure. I rewashed all his teeny newborn and small cloth diapers today. Washed my organic velour breastpads and got the fleece liners done too. I've been having contractions on and off for a couple of nights so on the off chance this baby makes his way here too early... I am ready.
I caught a side profile of myself tonight in our big picture window. Fucking huge. That's all.
Once again it's 5 am and I am WIDE AWAKE. I wake every single night between 4 and 4:30 and cannot get back to sleep. So I wander the house, have some water, chew some gum, go pee... eventually get on the computer and see what the rest of the world is doing. Usually not too much ;) Dammit I just got to sleep at like 1:30! So now I'll be awake till at least 6 am and then up at 9 am with the girls. No wonder I'm fucking tired all the time.
So Jeff and I are hosting the Beltaine ritual for our pagan group this sunday. They are a good group of people and I am enjoying getting to know them. It's nice to have some "couple" friends again as we've been without that kind of interaction for a couple of years now.
Baby blue is sleeping peacefully at the moment... okay never mind. As I wrote that he kicked my right rib. Nice. lol! He's an active one for sure. I rewashed all his teeny newborn and small cloth diapers today. Washed my organic velour breastpads and got the fleece liners done too. I've been having contractions on and off for a couple of nights so on the off chance this baby makes his way here too early... I am ready.
I caught a side profile of myself tonight in our big picture window. Fucking huge. That's all.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Names? Names? My kingdom for a name...
That does not suck. That I don't hate. That everyone can pronounce... you get the idea.
Girl name was easy... Indigo Violet Robyn. Easy Peasy. Except for one little fact... apparently we're not having a girl.
So boy baby was going to be Gryphon. Then Zephyr. Then... then... then... I THINK we're settle on Phoenix. The baby seems to agree and it just works mentally for me. I could never picture this baby being a Gryphon... it just was not right.
So Phoenix. Yep. For today at least.
Girl name was easy... Indigo Violet Robyn. Easy Peasy. Except for one little fact... apparently we're not having a girl.
So boy baby was going to be Gryphon. Then Zephyr. Then... then... then... I THINK we're settle on Phoenix. The baby seems to agree and it just works mentally for me. I could never picture this baby being a Gryphon... it just was not right.
So Phoenix. Yep. For today at least.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
yummm... mucus...
Yah I'm slowly leaking some mucus from my plug. I did this with Olivia for a couple of months so I'm not worried. It regenerates. I did a quick cervical check and it's long, high and only a fingertip open. I'm not terribly panicked because even if the baby was born RIGHT NOW he's big enough and far along enough that the outcome would probably be very good.
I sold a sling today so we're taking the kids out to see a movie. Ice age 2. Luckily Olivia is still under 3 so she's free :)
I sold a sling today so we're taking the kids out to see a movie. Ice age 2. Luckily Olivia is still under 3 so she's free :)
This n that
I THINK my sore throat is not as sore today. At least I can eat without being in terrible pain. Did I mention I am done with being sick? DONE DONE DONE.
My other father is not in good shape. He's been on a heavy duty drug for arthiritus called Embrol. It's been working well but it works by killing your immune system. His dr. informed him that he's had a heart attack (a silent one) and that if anyone is the slightest bit sick he is not allowed around them. So the girls have not even seen their other grandparents in almost a month :( It's making them very sad.
Maddy is at ballet right now and Olivia is eating a fruit cup. The same fruit cup she's been eating for the last half hour. No wonder she's only 28 lbs at almost 3 years old!!!
This baby is doing something very strange to my bladder. It hurts!!!! Since baby has dropped (and neither of my girls ever did) I'm getting all sorts of wierd sensations. Like shooting pains through my cervix... what the heck is that? And if feels like I'm walking with a ball between my legs... baby's head? It's kinda cool :)
My grandmother invited us over for dinner tomorrow. It should be fun. She's got tons of land and the kids can run free without us worrying about people snatching them. Course there are the bears.... oh well. You can't protect them from everything ;) lol!
My other father is not in good shape. He's been on a heavy duty drug for arthiritus called Embrol. It's been working well but it works by killing your immune system. His dr. informed him that he's had a heart attack (a silent one) and that if anyone is the slightest bit sick he is not allowed around them. So the girls have not even seen their other grandparents in almost a month :( It's making them very sad.
Maddy is at ballet right now and Olivia is eating a fruit cup. The same fruit cup she's been eating for the last half hour. No wonder she's only 28 lbs at almost 3 years old!!!
This baby is doing something very strange to my bladder. It hurts!!!! Since baby has dropped (and neither of my girls ever did) I'm getting all sorts of wierd sensations. Like shooting pains through my cervix... what the heck is that? And if feels like I'm walking with a ball between my legs... baby's head? It's kinda cool :)
My grandmother invited us over for dinner tomorrow. It should be fun. She's got tons of land and the kids can run free without us worrying about people snatching them. Course there are the bears.... oh well. You can't protect them from everything ;) lol!
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Getting better? Maybe?
Well I got sick. Sicker than sick. The sickest I've ever felt for the longest I've ever felt sick. Then Olivia got sick (pneumonia) then Maddy got sick... but not too too sick. Then Jeff got sick AGAIN! Then I was still sick. Sick sick sick.
Blerg.
But I THINK we're coming out the other side of this. I still have clogged ears and a sore throat but the rest of the symptoms are gone.
On totally unrelated news... my good friend Jean gave birth by repeat c-section yesterday to a little boy :) His name is Alex and we're going to see him tonight. I'm still not sure what her logic was behind the repeat section but... not my body. I gave her my point of view and listened to her and that's all one can do right?
I had my 32 week u/s on tuesday. Everything is great! Baby is growing well and an estimated 4lbs 12 oz. He's still a he... lol.
Blerg.
But I THINK we're coming out the other side of this. I still have clogged ears and a sore throat but the rest of the symptoms are gone.
On totally unrelated news... my good friend Jean gave birth by repeat c-section yesterday to a little boy :) His name is Alex and we're going to see him tonight. I'm still not sure what her logic was behind the repeat section but... not my body. I gave her my point of view and listened to her and that's all one can do right?
I had my 32 week u/s on tuesday. Everything is great! Baby is growing well and an estimated 4lbs 12 oz. He's still a he... lol.
Friday, March 31, 2006
Oh my fucking hell...
I am in pain the likes of which I have not know for a loooooong time. My sciatic nerve has been okay for the last bit but today I woke up with it just killing me. I was managing it fine until dh (and that's not darling) went screeching at top speed around a corner when we were out doing errands today. I almost fell off my seat of the van and the PAIN WAS SO FUCKING INTENSE I just howled! Can you damage a nerve? Because now all the way down from the top of my ass to my fucking foot is KILLING ME!!!!! Ow ow ow ow ow :( /whinge
So jeff is sick. Really sick. Mega flu sick. He has to go to work tomorrow cause he does not have any sick time. He didn't get any sleep last night and looks like hell. Fever, achey bod, runny nose, cough, sneeze... blerg. I better not get this! I bought him some extra stength neo-citron and sent him to bed at like 8pm.
I'm going to have a bath and wait for the tylenol to kick in... ouch.
So jeff is sick. Really sick. Mega flu sick. He has to go to work tomorrow cause he does not have any sick time. He didn't get any sleep last night and looks like hell. Fever, achey bod, runny nose, cough, sneeze... blerg. I better not get this! I bought him some extra stength neo-citron and sent him to bed at like 8pm.
I'm going to have a bath and wait for the tylenol to kick in... ouch.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Decluttering queen
In the past two weeks I have gone through all the girls clothes, their closets and their toys. Purged the laundry room, rec room, hall closet and craft drawer. Cleaned out the fridge, freezer and pantry and totally changed around and decluttered the living room. Now I want to purge my closet, the kitchen cupboards and the storage room. Then my ENTIRE HOUSE will be done.
So the total is...
donations: 9 large green garbage bags and 2 huge boxes
throw aways: at least 6 large green garbage bags
nesting much?
So the total is...
donations: 9 large green garbage bags and 2 huge boxes
throw aways: at least 6 large green garbage bags
nesting much?
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Oh blerg...
I just spent the last 1/2 hour cleaning out my fridge, freezer and pantry. It was smellin kinda manky. I don't know why we keep bottles of assorted crap with like 1/4 inch of stuff in the bottom... and then CONTINUE to keep them for like... two years. Blerg. So there is officially no food in my fridge. One bag of carrots. Some pears and apples. 3 jars of salsa and some pickles. Oh and soy cheese and eggs. Thank goodness payday is friday or we might all starve to death. After I write this I have to go smash up all the boxes for recyling. I'm planning also to declutter the hallway closet and maybe the junk cupboard in the kitchen. I'm nesting.
It's recently come to light that my "sister" (her parents basically raised me from young teenagerhood has been living with a pedophile for the last four years. He's now been found with NASTY pics of little (and I mean little) girls on his computer. He's been pulled into the police station twice now! He really just needs to be taken out back and fucking shot. There's some concern raised that he might have pics of my kids on his computer. He has a camera phone and they found pics of HIS daughters pantied vulva on the computer... who knows how long he's been taking pics like this. he's never been alone with my kids but we've all been camping together and he's been around the parent's place with just out of the bath naked kidlets running around... I don't even want to think about him "thinking" about my girls :(
Well off to keep cleaning. Baby is fine. I'm fine. Girls are fine :)
It's recently come to light that my "sister" (her parents basically raised me from young teenagerhood has been living with a pedophile for the last four years. He's now been found with NASTY pics of little (and I mean little) girls on his computer. He's been pulled into the police station twice now! He really just needs to be taken out back and fucking shot. There's some concern raised that he might have pics of my kids on his computer. He has a camera phone and they found pics of HIS daughters pantied vulva on the computer... who knows how long he's been taking pics like this. he's never been alone with my kids but we've all been camping together and he's been around the parent's place with just out of the bath naked kidlets running around... I don't even want to think about him "thinking" about my girls :(
Well off to keep cleaning. Baby is fine. I'm fine. Girls are fine :)
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Tired and bitchy
I think my husband thinks I'm going crazy. Yep I've entered the third trimester insane mood swing stage. Fuck I hate this stage!!!! It seems like I burst into tears over the STUPIDEST things at least once a day. I'm going to drive that poor man to drink... I know it.
I'm patiently (or not so patiently) waiting for 3 or 4 packages from the states to arrive and one from canada. One from the states has been a month now, one from here has been at least two weeks. I've emailed the mom's to ask if they've shipped them and no reply. We're talking about $150 worth of diapering stuff for the new baby and new longies (Mosaic moon ones!) for Olivia. I sure hope 1. It arrives and 2. It was mailed in the first place.
My mom came home this morning (she works in alberta.) I talked to her briefly.
The kids are cuddled up watching "finding nemo" I need a nap.
I'm patiently (or not so patiently) waiting for 3 or 4 packages from the states to arrive and one from canada. One from the states has been a month now, one from here has been at least two weeks. I've emailed the mom's to ask if they've shipped them and no reply. We're talking about $150 worth of diapering stuff for the new baby and new longies (Mosaic moon ones!) for Olivia. I sure hope 1. It arrives and 2. It was mailed in the first place.
My mom came home this morning (she works in alberta.) I talked to her briefly.
The kids are cuddled up watching "finding nemo" I need a nap.
Monday, March 13, 2006
We're off to the clinic...
With a fever of 104 that I can't get down in Olivia no matter what I do. Fuck I hate it when kids are sick and I can't DO anything.
A bunch of sicko's
Is what Olivia and I are today. We were at my other mother's last wednesday and we came in contact with a sick boy cousin and a sick aunt. Olivia's cousin Jassy ended up sick for her birthday party on saturday and I think Olivia was already feeling punky by then... she was pretty clingy and whiney (she's not usually like that.) Yesterday she ate no breakfast, 1/4 of a pb sandwich for lunch and two oven fries for dinner. After determining she had a temp of 103 I gave her a bath, a popsicle and sent her to bed, at 6:30. I checked on her many times last night and she was warmish... but ok. Then this morning she woke me and she was still at 102.1. Poor babe.
Of course now my nose is running and I feel shitty... was I not JUST SICK? The wait for Maddy to get this is now on.
We did so much running around this weekend. After trying every single dress that Maddy own's on her for the party, we determined that ONE DRESS out of 10 DRESSES fit her. Everything fits body wise... but she just shot up another 4 inches so everything is way too short. Be damned if I am paying 15-20 bucks a dress for her to play in (she LOVES to wear dresses. All the time.) So we went to Value village and got a total of 9 dresses (four for M and five for O) for $40. So cute. And they are all basically brand new summery dresses.
We also got the recyling done, old clothes donated, some groceries bought. Some housework done, the driveway chalked... (lol! maddy and daddy did some awesome artwork)
I'm off back to bed. Maddy will be up soon and I need some more rest before dealing with her for the day.
Of course now my nose is running and I feel shitty... was I not JUST SICK? The wait for Maddy to get this is now on.
We did so much running around this weekend. After trying every single dress that Maddy own's on her for the party, we determined that ONE DRESS out of 10 DRESSES fit her. Everything fits body wise... but she just shot up another 4 inches so everything is way too short. Be damned if I am paying 15-20 bucks a dress for her to play in (she LOVES to wear dresses. All the time.) So we went to Value village and got a total of 9 dresses (four for M and five for O) for $40. So cute. And they are all basically brand new summery dresses.
We also got the recyling done, old clothes donated, some groceries bought. Some housework done, the driveway chalked... (lol! maddy and daddy did some awesome artwork)
I'm off back to bed. Maddy will be up soon and I need some more rest before dealing with her for the day.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Well that was wierd...
I went out last night with a friend. A friend that I have not even SEEN despite being in the same town... for 10 years! I saw her at the mall last saturday, she gave me her card, I wrote her an email, we got together. Wierd.
We met in grade eight and were best friends all through highschool and for a couple of years after. Then she got a boyfriend, kinda ditched all of us, I moved in with my boyfriend and we lost touch.
Whats strange is that even after 10 FREAKING YEARS it's like I just saw her yesterday. We talked non stop for almost 4 hours. We went out to a restaurant and had a hard time shutting up to even eat our food. It's amazing! I just feel so... wow... I don't know... energized? We've also just connected and it's cool to see that we still do.
After eating and talking (and talking and talking) I brought her home to meet my husband ;) We're probably going to get together this weekend so that she can meet my kids and I can meet her guy.
It was just meant to happen. Fate... or the stars are lined up JUST RIGHT. Or something. I really don't care what. I am glad that I found my friend again :)
We met in grade eight and were best friends all through highschool and for a couple of years after. Then she got a boyfriend, kinda ditched all of us, I moved in with my boyfriend and we lost touch.
Whats strange is that even after 10 FREAKING YEARS it's like I just saw her yesterday. We talked non stop for almost 4 hours. We went out to a restaurant and had a hard time shutting up to even eat our food. It's amazing! I just feel so... wow... I don't know... energized? We've also just connected and it's cool to see that we still do.
After eating and talking (and talking and talking) I brought her home to meet my husband ;) We're probably going to get together this weekend so that she can meet my kids and I can meet her guy.
It was just meant to happen. Fate... or the stars are lined up JUST RIGHT. Or something. I really don't care what. I am glad that I found my friend again :)
Thursday, March 09, 2006
I... am... full...
Blerg.
I was having a craving for farmers sausage yesterday. So while I was at my other mother's I mentioned it and OF COURSE she had some in her freezer. So guess what I had for breakfast? Farmer's sausage. Lots of farmer's sausage. Blerg.
I think we're going to take the kids to see Big Comfy Couch live on stage. They'd better appreciate it! The tickets are like $18 each! I'm hoping my best friend Robyn and her kids come too.
I have LLL tonight. I have a feeling it's going to be a pretty informal meeting. Those are the best kinds though. I'll probably take Olivia tonight as Jassy's going to be there... or maybe too much chaos would ensue!
My sister is irritating the ever loving fuck out of me these days. Apparently she's had a miscarriage every single month that she's been married to her alabama husband (they met on the net, one month later he was here in canada, 1.5 weeks later they were married, 2.5 weeks later they were back in alabama... the condensed version of course.) Now I've had quite a few miscarriages and I know how that can hurt... but if you are simply 1 FUCKING DAY LATE for her period and never even took a pregnancy test, how on earth could you have known you were pregnant? She keeps telling me about the massive clots and how she swears she saw a baby in there... at 4 weeks 1 day. Ok. Sure. Yah. fucking hell.
Well off to have a bath. The kids are transfixed by Berenstain bears ;)
I was having a craving for farmers sausage yesterday. So while I was at my other mother's I mentioned it and OF COURSE she had some in her freezer. So guess what I had for breakfast? Farmer's sausage. Lots of farmer's sausage. Blerg.
I think we're going to take the kids to see Big Comfy Couch live on stage. They'd better appreciate it! The tickets are like $18 each! I'm hoping my best friend Robyn and her kids come too.
I have LLL tonight. I have a feeling it's going to be a pretty informal meeting. Those are the best kinds though. I'll probably take Olivia tonight as Jassy's going to be there... or maybe too much chaos would ensue!
My sister is irritating the ever loving fuck out of me these days. Apparently she's had a miscarriage every single month that she's been married to her alabama husband (they met on the net, one month later he was here in canada, 1.5 weeks later they were married, 2.5 weeks later they were back in alabama... the condensed version of course.) Now I've had quite a few miscarriages and I know how that can hurt... but if you are simply 1 FUCKING DAY LATE for her period and never even took a pregnancy test, how on earth could you have known you were pregnant? She keeps telling me about the massive clots and how she swears she saw a baby in there... at 4 weeks 1 day. Ok. Sure. Yah. fucking hell.
Well off to have a bath. The kids are transfixed by Berenstain bears ;)
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
What is a mom...
Someone to be abused constantly apparently.
Jeff let me sleep in this morning. I got up, he shoveled the driveway. He was getting ready to take a shower and I was watching the kids play with their wooden train set. After being GOOD AS GOLD all morning while I was sleeping... the second I get up Maddy starts acting up. Yelling at her sister, throwing things around, not listening to a word I say. We've been having this problem where when I ask her to hand me something she just chucks it at me. I AM NOT A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!! She really makes me feel like I am sometimes. How is it that a fucking FOUR YEAR OLD has that power over me????
I'm repeating "use gentle voices maddy... we're right here! Toys are for playing not for throwing, listen to mommy I am saying something you need to hear... WE DON'T THROW THINGS AT MOMMY! HAND IT TO ME NICELY!"
I have little to no patience. I'm not sleeping very well at night. Olivia was grouchy due to teeth all day yesterday. I'm still supposed to be taking it easy. Blerg.
On that note; how come every time I have to leave the house I want to scream. I have mother goose tonight. I have to bake a cake. The task seems huge to me. I don't WANT to make snack. I don't WANT to go to mother goose. But I do you know?
Sigh. It's one of those days.
Jeff let me sleep in this morning. I got up, he shoveled the driveway. He was getting ready to take a shower and I was watching the kids play with their wooden train set. After being GOOD AS GOLD all morning while I was sleeping... the second I get up Maddy starts acting up. Yelling at her sister, throwing things around, not listening to a word I say. We've been having this problem where when I ask her to hand me something she just chucks it at me. I AM NOT A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!! She really makes me feel like I am sometimes. How is it that a fucking FOUR YEAR OLD has that power over me????
I'm repeating "use gentle voices maddy... we're right here! Toys are for playing not for throwing, listen to mommy I am saying something you need to hear... WE DON'T THROW THINGS AT MOMMY! HAND IT TO ME NICELY!"
I have little to no patience. I'm not sleeping very well at night. Olivia was grouchy due to teeth all day yesterday. I'm still supposed to be taking it easy. Blerg.
On that note; how come every time I have to leave the house I want to scream. I have mother goose tonight. I have to bake a cake. The task seems huge to me. I don't WANT to make snack. I don't WANT to go to mother goose. But I do you know?
Sigh. It's one of those days.
Monday, March 06, 2006
Frodo... lost his mojo...
He's frodo the mojo less cat!
That would be a little ditty composed by my husband. Frodo the blue and white persian, at the tender age of 8 months... has been separated from his testicles today. He seems pretty pissed about the whole thing I have to say ;) He's still zoo'ed out of his tree and very very mellow. Tell me though, when they say to keep the cat from running and jumping, how do they think we are supposed to do that exactly?
I had a good day. Jeff got up with the kids and let me sleep until 10am. Then I was back in bed at 1pm for a nap and slept until 4:30! I got up and Jeff made cheese tortelini and pesto for dinner. We never dreamed the kids would eat the pesto so jeff put some tomato sauce on theirs for them. Of course... they wanted the pesto. I have strange children.
We drove around for a bit tonight after doing some shopping. We needed water and a birthday gift for Jassy (my niece). She's turning three! She's three months younger than Olivia which means Olivia is turning three soon... sigh. We bought her a wooden doll furniture set with a table and two chairs, high chair and cradle. I think she will like it :)
Off for now. Olivia fell asleep while we were driving so she's in bed already. maddy and daddy are reading a ballet story and then she'll be down. Ahhhh... the sound of sweet silence.
That would be a little ditty composed by my husband. Frodo the blue and white persian, at the tender age of 8 months... has been separated from his testicles today. He seems pretty pissed about the whole thing I have to say ;) He's still zoo'ed out of his tree and very very mellow. Tell me though, when they say to keep the cat from running and jumping, how do they think we are supposed to do that exactly?
I had a good day. Jeff got up with the kids and let me sleep until 10am. Then I was back in bed at 1pm for a nap and slept until 4:30! I got up and Jeff made cheese tortelini and pesto for dinner. We never dreamed the kids would eat the pesto so jeff put some tomato sauce on theirs for them. Of course... they wanted the pesto. I have strange children.
We drove around for a bit tonight after doing some shopping. We needed water and a birthday gift for Jassy (my niece). She's turning three! She's three months younger than Olivia which means Olivia is turning three soon... sigh. We bought her a wooden doll furniture set with a table and two chairs, high chair and cradle. I think she will like it :)
Off for now. Olivia fell asleep while we were driving so she's in bed already. maddy and daddy are reading a ballet story and then she'll be down. Ahhhh... the sound of sweet silence.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
My baby is growing up...
Waaaahhhh! Maddy and daddy left about 20 minutes ago for kindergarten registration. She turns 5 in september and here you have to turn 5 before December 31st on the year you go to school. So she'll be one of the younger ones but she's very mature and bright so I know she'll do well.
Of course I am such a dolt I totally forgot about the vaccination issue. Jeff asks as they are walking out... "so what if they ask if she is vaccinated?" I'm like... ummm... well... and of course I can't remember if they require it or not! I looked it up though and thankfully BC kids don't have any mandatory vaccination nessesary.
The thing that is wigging me out about this school is it's full day kindergarden. Two times one week and then three times the next week (so monday, wednesday one week and then rotating fridays.) I'm sure she'll do well. I hope she'll do well. Sigh.
It just seems to wierd. To be having a baby... and watching my first baby go to school.
Just rambling... Livia is still sleeping and this baby is playing hide and go boo with my bladder
Of course I am such a dolt I totally forgot about the vaccination issue. Jeff asks as they are walking out... "so what if they ask if she is vaccinated?" I'm like... ummm... well... and of course I can't remember if they require it or not! I looked it up though and thankfully BC kids don't have any mandatory vaccination nessesary.
The thing that is wigging me out about this school is it's full day kindergarden. Two times one week and then three times the next week (so monday, wednesday one week and then rotating fridays.) I'm sure she'll do well. I hope she'll do well. Sigh.
It just seems to wierd. To be having a baby... and watching my first baby go to school.
Just rambling... Livia is still sleeping and this baby is playing hide and go boo with my bladder
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