That I am sitting here crying my eyes out as if Phoenix has liver disease and has died already. I know that liver disease is one of the things that they will be trying to see if he has and I am already thinking that he has been handed a death warrant.
I can't imagine my life without this little person in it. He smiled at me today... for the very first time. I burst into tears.
I stroke his very soft skin as if I am trying to touch for a lifetime of touches that I will miss.
I smell his soft head and commit the scent to memory.
I study his every feature and take a photograph in my mind.
I hope... I hope... I hope...
that everything will be okay.
That it's nothing.
That they are overreacting.
That my little boy will be with me forever...