I've been lax on journaling. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm... depressed? I'm not sure but I feel that way a bit.
Lately I've been feeling the finality of Jeff's sterility. I don't "want" more children but I'm feeling the finality of not ever having that choice again. I was okay with it 10 months ago but not so much now. Not that there is anything that we would do or can be done. I feel our family is complete. But mommy amnesia has set in and I can only remember all the good things about being pregnant and having a newborn ;)
I'm dealing. I'm hoping this stage does not last long. I should have waited until now to get my dog ;)
The house is great. It's a dream. Our first mortgage payment came out and now we're officially on the poverty program ;)
Phoenix is back in cloth. He seems to tolerate being a bit wet much better than he used to and now that he is not quite so hating diaper changes and is willing to sit a tiny bit still, it's easier to get a snappi on him without impaling his penis and testicles.
School starts on tuesday... I'm ready but am I "ready?"
I need to let my feelings go to the Goddess and just trust that everything will work out.